We are tired, hurting, frustarted, angry

Governments and “higher” systems that influence key decision makers that think it is okay to act and not be held responsible.

It’s sad that we still talking about this, years after independence from colonialism, apartheid, slavery name it. We are still talking about this.

When will it end the cycle has to be broken. Our children, nephews, nieces should not have to fight the wars we are fighting.

I fail to understand why we have to learn Chinese in our own country because they have declared that they are not going to learn our languages. And because they are the investors we have to bend to their will. We have to speak broken English to accommodate them.

So what now we can’t stand for our rights? We can’t demonstrate because we are afraid of being shot at! Now we just take everything lying down like the good blakkies the colonisers made us to be only now our colonisers are the same people who fought the liberation struggle so “we” could be free?

Is it too much to ask to go to a service station and fuel up without having to shout and beat up the fuel attendant because he is letting his friends and their relatives and their neighbourhood watch members fuel up first? Never mind the fact that you have been there since 3 am and its 11 am now and you have only moved a total 2 meters!

Come on, we shouldn’t be talking and struggling with these things now. I will not even start talking about how my parents managed to buy a house by the time they were my age, I won’t even delve into that. I won’t even talk about how they didn’t have to have multiple streams of income to survive! That one job was sufficient.

This has to stop honestly.

The killing, the hate, the racism, the sexism, the freaking evil corruption

I am too tired to get angry all over again.

They see another black statistic, I see my father

They see another body they are zipping up in a body bag, I see my brother

They see another body that’s fighting against the system, i see a mother fighting for her children’s future.

I want to be the change I want to see but it gets darker and darker everyday

And I am tired of even reading the news, what’s new these days?

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