When you see Him

I am not sure where it happened, oh how exactly it happened but somewhere in between time, in between the madness, the chaos and the confusion I lost Him.

One minute I felt safe in His arms. I am pretty sure He was holding my hand then I just don’t know what, we walked through a valley and all I could see was mist and I felt a hand let go or did I let go? All I know is that my hand felt light, I felt a chill go up my spine and the darkness descended heavily upon me.

I would like to think we had a good thing going. Well I mean I did all the talking and He did the listening, I thought this was working now I am left wondering if He got tired of hearing my voice? Did I over do the talking? Was I selfish? Did He want to say something?

I have many fears but His friendship is one thing I never want to lose and it breaks my heart that I might have lost my One True Friend.

If you see Him or hear from Him please tell Him I am still where He left me in this dark valley waiting for Him to rescue me.

If you talk to Him please ask Him to respond to my cries for help my voice is slowly wearing thin and I am not sure I will be able to call out any longer.

If you see Him please tell Him I didn’t mean to let go, I don’t know why I let go. I really don’t know how I let go and I promise my soul has never felt…never felt…never felt unfamiliar?

If you see Him please tell Him I won’t make promises I won’t keep but I will promise this time around to hold onto Him even tighter and never let go.

When you see God, please tell Him I am here looking for Him.