I know now what I know
Regret after envy has got to be the most heart wrenching emotion. As I was debating on how to write this post, the one thing I knew I didn’t want to do was to make a list of things I regret. Even if I had to make a list as a step to healing I would pass. Why would I want to put myself through that, a self inflicted hell.
Regret is possibly a cause of mental breakdowns and unhappiness. Think of it like being chained to disappointment, guilt and unmet expectations, how can you honestly remain sane?
Like everyone else there are times I look back and wish I had done certain things differently or kept my big mouth shut tight. When that happens I forget to breathe out and and it takes me a while to gain my rhythm again.
Wouldn’t it be easier if everyday right before you open your eyes there is a huge screen that shows you how your day will go? You would get to see who you will meet, words that will be spoken and from there you can sort of deduce the good choices you will make and the terrible decisions you will make and act accordingly… wouldn’t that make our lives so much easier? Sign me up already! The decisions(good and bad) waiting to be made and I would definitely appreciate this.
But that is not in the fine print, the Ts & Cs do not cover that!. The mystery and beauty of life lies in the unknown. Chances are you don’t know how the year is going to turn out hell you don’t know how the day is going to turn out but you still wake up and make those decisions that you may or may not regret later, pray and hope for the best always.
I know now what I know so I am going to try and limit being angry to the point of losing my mind. Lucky for me I am learning to keep my peace so asking myself before I say something if I won’t regret it wont be so difficult. Most of the times the answer is yes 😎 so keeping my peace it is.
I know now what I know so I don’t want to regret not doing some things. I don’t want to regret not experiencing life. I want to travel as much as I can, yes it is true travelling opens your mind even if it’s just a day away to the lake.
I know now what I know and I do not want to regret having neglected myself, I am very important. Me. Important. Very.
I want to live life to the fullest, no regrets whatsoever. An intentional life. In other words I must live my life as if I am getting paid a lot of money to live it right no regrets.
Is that too much to ask for or am I reaching?
